Got into a rabbithole and stumbled upon the /now page movement while working on something completely unrelated and found it somewhat interesting, so I may as well create a now page in lieu of the nonexistent about page.
I realize that most of the things I do are usually time-constrained or conclude once the task is completed, so there is a nontrivial probability that this devolves into a todo list.
Now that I’ve started working full-time and am no longer a student (for now), thus meaning the concept of time no longer exists, I will do my best to update this more often. Hopefully this also means doing things that I’m actually proud of posting and not constantly being stuck in a state of doing nothing particularly stimulating.
Last Updated: 2026-04-16
Now is a time. Here are some major updates in order of how they have influenced my life, and then some smaller updates and tangents that may be interesting. I apologize in advance if anything and everything is overwhelmingly negative or depressing; the past few months have not been the easiest.
I would strongly like some close powerlifting friends or a community of like-minded powerlifters. Powerlifting takes up such a large portion of my life with respect to my lifestyle (making sure I get enough food, sleep, steps, etc.), and I spend a consistent and regular amount of time at the gym. It’s nice to not have to worry about my lifestyle or lift schedule when making plans, and I would like some of my time spent with friends to be more worry-free. The issue is that it seems like nearly everyone I know in the powerlifting space has either stopped taking friend applications back when houses were 2 dollars apiece (or some other form of lack of availability due to other reasons) and/or are strongly incompatible with me to the point that I more or less would not like to be associated with them in any capacity.
There’s no easy solution to this problem. I have gratitude towards my friends whether they are involved in powerlifting or not while acknowledging that this is something I feel like I would like in my life, and I think that is all I can do now. The search continues.
If it’s any indication by how I write, I don’t speak well either. I think some issues are fixable, some have nuance, and some are not my problem altogether; a breakdown of possible woes are below.
These points have condensed actionable items; invert the statements and you know what to do.
There can be arguments for/against the following depending on the situation as opposed to the previous ones being not preferable to unacceptable in most to all contexts.
These are not up yet, but I want to make use of the domains I pay a grand total of $50/year for and finally make a website for a food blog and a lifting log. I anticipate both of them will end up more beneficial for myself than for someone else. When it comes to the food blog, I’m just trying to keep a record of places I’ve been to and if I’ll consider going to them again or if they’re worth making a recommendation for friends and family. For the lifting log, I have friends with lifting logs on Instagram, and I’ve always wanted to join in, except that I deleted Instagram (see above). In true CS major fashion, I decided it would be nice to self host my videos and put them on a website as opposed to on Instagram.
I’m writing this in the Bay Area, but this week I was actually planning to go to New York. I was also hoping to go to USAPL Raw Nationals in Chicago in June, but I doubt I will be going now. How did we get here? These were two trips that I had been thinking about for months and trying to put on the next Now Page update, only for them to no longer be plans when I finally got to updating the page. It’s crushing to dream of plans for months, watch the days roll by and the dates get closer, only to realize that you won’t be going.
New York is the epitome of the phrase “nothing ever happens”. The idea of New York has been floating in my mind for months ever since one of my friends moved recently, and I had been thinking of going with a local friend to visit our friend in NYC. After many mentions of the trip, I found concrete plans, only for them to not be compatible with my local friend. Months have gone by, it took ages before I myself put forth a concrete plan, but it is like pulling teeth to get past the planning stage; thus nothing ever happens. Maybe plans will be set for real this time down the line, or maybe nothing ever happens; I’ll go when I want to go regardless. I have two more friends moving soon due to work and school, so I’m looking forward to visiting after they move.
Chicago is a bit darker; it touches on the continuation of the woes of finding community in powerlifting as the whole point of the trip was to support friends at powerlifting nationals. I was originally given an open invite to come to Chicago by people in Washington, and I immediately blocked out my time and let those in the Bay Area know of my plans. Frankly, I no longer feel close enough to any of the aforementioned people to justify spending money on flights and accommodations nor feel like the effort put into connecting friends from both parts of the country will pan out well. Symmetrically, I don’t think I’m as welcome as I thought I was - I was greeted with questions by the WA folks when I mentioned maybe needing to take PTO for that week so I could be there, and I don’t think the Bay Area people had a bit of a recollection of what was happening. These conclusions can feel quite dark and depressing, but I realize that I’ve gotten my time back and am free to do whatever makes me happy during that time.
If I’m not doing anything above, you can assume I’m trying to adhere to these much more general statements.
Things I’m looking forward to in the future, as well as an archive for any interesting things that once resided in now.